distractions.

my hands paint whats in my mindscape, trying to alleviate the stress, convince myself im bless, or at least better off than most, not trying to boast just trying to appeal to my better sense, im trying not to take plays off or settle always swinging for the fence, so is it wrong of me to cut short this song and not prolong the things going wrong, when i said "we can spend a slow forever" i meant we can two step to the same beat, but change is a hard thing to beat, especially when u get tired of being on your feet and decide we can get "too comfortable", thats the type of thinking made the last "one" portable, im not trying to collect a past thats assortable, things like that just happen, when i spoke of us, i spoke of tr-us-t, others brought up a fuss and it all became about envy and lust, and i stay never being jealous, Jay told me that was a female trait, make no mistake i attempt to calculate every step i take weigh out the positives and negatives keep an open mind and stay subjective, but people cant help the way they feel, im trying to keep my mind on an even keel, even when memories of the past come back trying to heal i just keep moving, i need to focus on text books not texts and hooks, need to figure out how to make out like a crook instead of wondering about who shes talking to on her myspace and facebook, i need to go on and find that missing component, stop living in memories, man up and realize perfection last but a moment.